What to do...

I'm trying not to stress out right now... especially for the baby. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm in love with him, but he continues to do the same crap over and over. Talking to other females, telling them how much he wants to do things to them, but doesn't even know them. Meanwhile, I sit here pretending everything is ok, that I'm just fine, thinking how this is going to affect our baby. I don't want to bring a child into this world and have them think its fine to treat a woman like this. That as long as you're not sleeping around on someone you're not technically cheating. If you are having thoughts of other women, going on dating sites, giving out your number, calling, texting and imming them, while you have someone at home, cleaning and cooking for you and who is now about to have your child, you're doing her dirty. You said you were different than other guys, I just don't see it anymore. Everyone tells me to leave you take you for child support. If I do that I'm afraid you won't be any part of our baby's life, like your dad wasn't there for you, it makes me sad to think about. I wish you could be more vocal with me about how you're feeling. You say you're trying, but really you're not. I'm about to stop trying myself. I'm ready to give up on everything. You make me sad. You really do most of the time anymore. You tell people I'm your friend. Or I'm your roommate. That you're single. I had one of your so called "friends" say to me if I wanted him I could've had him already, haha.. maybe you should ask him why he tells everyone he's single and that you're his roommate. That shit really bothered me. Seriously bothered me. To the point I felt like when the baby comes just leaving because what will we be? Your roommates? I feel as though you're ashamed. Ashamed of me, ashamed of the baby. That you wish I wasn't having a baby. Every time I think about that I cry. I just can't help it. You make me so self conscience, especially how you talk to other females. I feel like nothing. At least the baby will love me. No matter what, I will always have someone who will love me. There are times I'd like you to read this, others where I just want this to stay private. I don't even know if you remember I have this anymore.
The reason I am so angry at the fact of you looking at those disgusting things on the computer is when the baby gets older, you decide you're going to look at that stuff and they are playing some game or something online, they decide to start typing away not knowing and come across that shit? OMG!!! I would have to kill you! You don't think its strange that a "woman" is posting pictures of two men sucking each other off? That she has such an obsession with penis? But yet on other sites "she" has says "she" only wants to talk to women? She's not a woman. I don't care what you think. That is either a Transgender man, a hermaphrodite, or a bi-sexual man. I don't understand how you don't get it. Which makes me wonder about you looking at that stuff. Do you have those kind of feelings? You say you're just browsing? But what are you really doing? Because if you do like that, be you! Be happy. Don't keep hiding, if not why are you looking at that stuff????????
I don't understand.....

I have got to go before I have a break down again over this crap.....more again later :/